So to get back into the habit of writing and spending time with the Lord I am going to use this forum as my journal. There will be things that I choose not to post publicly but for the most part I believe that the revelations that God has and is giving me can be of some help to not only me but to the people that visit my blog. So off we go!!!
Tonight I flipped open my Bible to Luke 16. I was reading along with not much insight (and when I say not much insight I REALLY mean that I was completely and utterly lost in comprehension of one of Jesus’ parables) and then came to the scripture that reads:
(v. 13) No servant is able to serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will stand by and be devoted to the one and despise the other. You can not serve God and mammon (anything beside God that you put your trust in or rely on).
I have to be honest and tell you that I had an “untrusting” moment today. I found out that my financial situation took a big hit and to be honest it was very unexpected. I wish I could say that after hearing this news I went immediately into prayer mode and just took it to the feet of Jesus but I did what we as humans usually do. I panicked. I looked at the impossibility of the situation and began to have fearful thoughts and negative thoughts invading my mind. I left work for lunch and sat in the car wanting to cry out and blame God for not taking care of me but I took a deep breath and began to thank God for always taking care of me. This mountain seems firmly planted in front of me but I believe that God allowed that mountain to spring up to give me the opportunity to turn to Him…giving me the opportunity to love Him as my ONE master.
I refuse to put my trust in money or what society or this culture believes would be the right thing for me to do. The Lord God Almighty is my provider and as long as I am faithful to Him and what He is asking me to do I KNOW that He will take care of me.
I can look at many times in my life where I have relied on other things to get me through difficult situations and how many times I have robbed God of the opportunity to show me that He loves me and that He is my Father that WANTS to take care of me. Lord, forgive me for being selfish and trusting in my own ways when all You wanted from me was just an opportunity.
