Well it has been forever since I’ve sat to write anything at all. Tonight I was struck by this overwhelming need to sit and put some thoughts down. I’m not promising that it will all make sense but I’m going to attempt it anyway.
My life has definitely been on a roller coaster the last few weeks. I have left blockbuster and that was definitely a God thing. I have moved into a teller position with an Oklahoma bank. I am really enjoying it but it has its challenges as well. I am not totally sure that I fit in with the banker crowd but am hopeing that in time I will find my place. Don’t get me wrong..I love this job and am so thankful…so VERY thankful that God has placed me there.
Speaking of my roller coaster I have also moved in the last few weeks. I am now living with my best friend and things couldn’t be going better. We click so well and living together just really works for us. I am thankful that she allows me my space and respects the fact that there are nights I just don’t want to be around people.
I’ve been feeling that way a lot lately. I have wanted to seclude myself and be away with God. It has been a unique feeling and one that I have not felt in quite some time. We are just finishing a study on Joseph and I think about the ups and downs that Joseph’s life took and that he had more than enough time to spend with just he and God. He had such faith to believe that in EVERY circumstance God was there and that the plans that the Lord had for him would be something to encourage him. We all walk through shadows and valleys in our lives. I think the true testimony of our lives with God are how we respond to the Lord in those times.
I’ve been really struggling personally the last month or so with the fact that I am still single. I have tried to understand why the Lord is having me be alone but am challenged with the idea of wrapping my head around it. I know that I can’t see the plans or paths that the Lord has before me but there are just days that I wish the Father would clue me in!!! I know the Lord has a reason and I will be diligent in staying in this season as long as He wills it to be but I am lonely and as much as I spend time with God and lean on Him to be my companion, I do miss the physical touch of a hug or kiss that only another human being can give me.
Things overall are going great. I refuse to complain on the little things that tend to nag at me for I know the Lord’s plans are to prosper me and He is being faithful to do just THAT!!
