I’ve been thinking a lot lately but haven’t had too much to say. I’ve tried to sit and write several times but the truth is that I just haven’t felt like I’ve had anything productive to put down in my blog.
I think I am in this place with God where I am just standing. I don’t feel like I am really gaining any great insights into the Lord. And to be honest I am okay with this. I know that God is going to be asking me to do a lot of things that are outside of my box in the coming months and that I am going to be taken deeper into the things of God but maybe this is just my time of rest.
Off the topic of God, My air conditioner has been broken for almost 5 days and so I haven’t been staying at home. I miss my bed but know that I won’t get any rest in 90 degree apartment weather. I will be thankful for monday when they can get it fixed. I have also been watching my finances and that is a depressing sight. I am thinking that I may be forced to get a second job just to pay off all my medical bills and my credit cards and save money for India.
I am still very firm in the belief that I am going to India in October. I am not waivering and I am believing God for the finances. I believe that God has blessed my business so that I can bonus this quarter and that I can put all of that money back towards the trip. I talked to Steve about India and he was telling me that the trip was probably going to be more toward the first part of October instead of the end. Of course this makes getting the money a little harder and on a shorter time period but that’s okay… my God is a BIG God and He doesn’t need me to worry about the “how”.
I’ve been thinking a lot about being single these days. I teeter totter back and forth about whether or not I really want to be in a relationship right now or not. On the one hand I am lonely and I miss having someone to share my experiences with but on the other hand I am afraid that if I get into a relationship it will be difficult for me to go and do the will of the Lord for my life. I am sure that I am single right now for a reason and that this season will pass whenever the Lord is ready for it to pass.
I know I said that I didn’t have much to say. I guess I was wrong. There is a lot on my mind I guess I just needed to sit down and give it all a voice.
